Ok finally whats been going on...

I have to warn you this is a very sad and unexpected news. We found out 2 days before Christmas that the judge unofficially ruled that the kids are to go live with their grandma out of state, made for a "wonderful" Christmas. We didn't say anything to anyone except immediate family, because there was the chance that he would change his mind. This came as a TOTAL shock to EVERYONE. No one even knew grandma was still petitioning for custody. Anyway we got the official phone call today the judge stuck with his ruling and they will be leaving. I am not going to get into the details on here. its personal and confidential and I just emotionally can't right now. Our hearts are breaking right now. For as much as they irriate us and make me so angry I want to scream these are my babies, they made us a mommy and daddy. Thats whats new with us. We are really ok with this decision and have come to terms with it, but man it feels like someone is stabbing my heart as hard as they can right now. if you see us at walmart or someplace PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not come up to us and want to talk about this. First of all that is definitely not the time or the place and secondly I can't emotionally handle it right now. We love you all and have really appreciated all of you love, support and prayers.